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Tuesday, 20 April 2010

My first Vlog

This was actually recorded last night. I was just too lazy to post it on here. I babble on about the Skillet Concert Sunday night in my city.

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Saturday, 20 March 2010

The Downward Spiral

I'm starting to notice a pattern in the moods of my parents towards me. They slowly build up to the point to where they are happy with me, then "let" me do something (go stay with my boyfriend and his family, hang out with my best friend, or go to a party) then after I get home it just all goes downwards again. I don't know what their deal is. I'm a 19 year old girl that rarely got to do anything other than go to school throughout the majority of my teen years because either they said I couldn't do it, I was too afraid to ask, or I was tied up with a guy who got mad every time I tried to be social because he didn't like the people I would be with. I can't get that time back, but I can try to make up some of it. It's like they get mad at me for trying to have a life outside serving them or making them happy. It's like I get reprimanded for having an escape because they don't have any ways to escape because it's like they live in this little depressed world where everything and everyone is out to get them. There's no light to any situation. Maybe that's why I get that way sometimes, I'm learning from pros.

Sometimes it's so hard to see the end of all the fear and control. My boyfriend is a reminder that things will not always be the same. For years I was stuck between two guys that restricted me. I thought would never be able to do better. Then I met this amazingly silly and sweet guy that makes me happy.

Friday, 19 March 2010

I'm down to just one thing and I'm starting to scare myself

I'm currently feeling the lovely high blood pressure that comes along with the anger I get when something reminds me of certain things or times and it becomes a prolonged feeling. I have so much pent-up, but no real release. So I'm currently trying to mentally experience that release. God, sometimes the thoughts in my head scare me. For someone that isn't outwardly violent unless need be, I have violent thoughts. I guess not acting out these thoughts is what separates me from the criminally insane. I'm sure I'm plenty of "normal" people out there that are similar to me.

Sunday, 07 March 2010

Everybody knows that the world is full of stupid people

Today I made a visit to the store I have a love hate relationship with. Love the low prices because I'm broke as a joke, but a majority of the people there seem to not have sense at all. My problem on this visit are people that won't get out of the freakin' way or that seem to be doing their best to have a shopping cart wreak with you and try to blame the pain that the six kids in their cart are feeling from being stuffed in said cart on you. Even worse than that are those parents who can't control their child letting them run around. If I acted the way some of these kids did my ass better have been ready for some pain. These parents just fuss for 2 seconds and then go back to being oblivious.

And no, keeping your kid on a leash doesn't count

Then you have those people that just walk right out in front of you and then look at you like YOU need to get out of THEIR way.

I'm sorry ma'am, I was just distracted by your lovely gut you got out there!

So, I think I'm just going to start up a point system and just start running into people.

50 points for the girls that are wearing less than they should

100 for overweight women wearing sewn together bath towels

150 for polar bears

25 for pajama woman

500 for bride and groom

1,000,000 for Flavor Flav

150 for clowns

69 for Frank N. Furter

500 for a Mariachi band

1,000 for a bearded lady

5,000 for Tony Shalhoub. No more and no less.

Saturday, 06 March 2010

You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.

I saw Alice In Wonderland last night. It was a cute movie and the CGI was pretty good. While this version obviously had the bigger budget and was more visually stunning, I still find myself hooked on the miniseries SyFy showed back in December. Maybe because the Hatter was more aesthetically pleasing.

He's sooo cute!
Don't get me wrong, Johnny Depp really did an excellent job as he always does and fit more closely to the insane hatter from the books. He's not supposed to be attractive. I can't help but feel that melty feeling when Andrew Lee Potts smiles. It completely wins me over.

Like seriously, look at that cuteness and feel the melty-ness!

The one thing that really stood out to me in the movie was the Cheshire Cat. Lord knows I'm a sucker for creepily cute things and that cat is one. I just wanted to cuddle it! I've looked everywhere online for a plushie of it and can't find one anywhere.

Disney, make a plushie of this creepy cute ball o' smiling fur! NAO!

Well, that's it for today. I just ate McDonald's and now feel like I ate a freaking brick. Ughh...

-EDIT-
Oh, I forgot to mention one of the trailers I saw before the movie last night. So, I was just sittin' there and the Garrett Hedlund showed up on the screen. Automatically I go into little fangirl mode of saying things like "ZOMGZ HEE'S SOO HAWT!" I then wondered what movie this would be. When they showed this arcade game, I got my answer:

lolwut?

Tron? Seriously? The original was beyond the level of cheesy-ness that I can stand.

No, just no
I was too busy sitting there asking "Why?!" over and over in my head to pay attention for the rest of the trailer to see if it was just as bad as it's predecessor.

WHY GARRETT?! WHY?!
Upon further research it does look pretty awesome. I can't say a whole lot about the acting (Although it does seem a little less..umm...bad.) but the special effects are obviously way better.

Teaser Trailer from Comic Con 2009

I'll probably try to go see it in 3D when it comes out oh, about 10 FREAKING MONTHS FROM now.